It’s a strange feeling that bothers me when I begin to think of how I despise my job. It makes me feel worse when I think that I have no other offer in hand. Situations confuse me. I am at cross roads when I think if I should go ahead and quit or tolerate the unhappy work life for longer. Well my story below is something a lot of you can relate. I’m sure everyone of us have been in this situation where we wonder what’s going on and what are we working for. Take a while and glance through the paragraphs below. I can vouch that almost 9 out of 10 people who would read this will relate to it.
Well, it’s not the first time that I had decided to put in my papers. I bagged my first full-time job at the age of 23. A moderately famous event management agency from the country came to campus to hire Post Graduate Mass Communication students. We had to give a test that would determine how creative we are. They made us answer questions like, ‘Give us 5 creative ways of using a used chewing gum’.. Hell!! Why would you even want to use a used chewing gum?? Back then, I was just waiting to grab any offer that would come my way as I was eager to see my first pay cheque. The company’s presentation also seemed nice. I took up the job.
The story now begins. I did not enjoy working there. Like any fresher, I had various questions on my mind. Would I get another job if I quit this one? Won’t people ask why have I decided to quit within 3 months of my joining? Destiny however did not put me through this for long. A rival agency was more than willing to take me in. I jumped there without serving any notice period (which is pretty unethical if I think of it now!). I got along well. We were a bunch of like-minded people who respected good work. We did amazing stuff. We were the entertainers. However, a year down the line, I had to decide on putting down my papers. My health would not support my hectic work schedule. This was probably the most difficult decision for me to take. I knew at the back of my head that I would never enjoy any other work space as much as this. But then again, there are decisions in life you need to make and steps you need to take. I had to say, ‘I quit’.
I finally served a 2 week notice period as I knew if I would if I would hang in there for any longer I might change my decision and stay back. I managed to get into a different role. A profile that demanded very less of my time and allowed me to travel across the city. I bagged the role of a visual merchandising manager for a leading global brand. Everything about this job was fancy expect for the job in itself. People would congratulate me as they thought that grabbing a job with a brand like that was a major accomplishment. Only I knew what I was going through. I decided to inform my family that I would be quitting. Just then circumstances also changed and I decided to quit. My notice period went by in wrapping up open issues, creating handover documents. Colleagues started drifting away as they thought it would now be a waste of their time interacting with me. I had decided that I would never take up any job that comes my way and move on without any baggage.
After thinking for long, I decided that I would not take up anything that comes way. I would pick and choose. I didn’t want to repeat the same mistake again. This time I also wanted to go on a long holiday. I went with my family and friends on a Cruise for 4 days and then stayed at Singapore for a few more days. When I came back, I started free lancing as an event manager. I travelled a little more doing what I loved doing. I enjoyed being on key shows, running the show, managing the guests. I was back in the limelight. I was back in the event industry. But this was not earning me a regular income. I would bag a show here and there. Payment would also not be prompt. Hence I had to look for a new job. I did look. And I did find.
I moved to online marketing. It was the thing of the future. It was something that everyone would want to be a part of. Keeping my inabilities of not being a tech savvy or digi-savvy person aside, I took up the offer. I began to enjoy this challenge. I found some good friends. I was enjoying though I had a very nosy boss. Soon I had a team under me. But that was not to last. I started developing the unsettled feeling again. I wanted to quit and go away. I wanted to do nothing for a bit. I wanted to explore opportunities. I wanted to risk the security of a well paying job to chasing my dreams. Before all of that I wished to take a break to introspect and decide what to chase. And hence, I did it. I went up to the management and said, ‘I quit’.
My notice period is now on. I don’t know what the future holds for me. But I know that I want to have a major say in how my future shapes up. I don’t want to blame circumstances and people for what is happening in my life. I am the controller of my life and I will do whatever it takes to be happy, to dream and to chase that dream of mine.
Once again – I quit!!